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She Taught Me What Love Is

Yes, we fight. Yes, we both been at fault. Yes, we have both displaced our insecurities on each other in the form of anger. However, my philosophy that we have lived by is that we never go to bed angry with each other. We get angry, but we don’t stay angry. We are both in this relationship for the better and for the worse. In the end, we keep God in the center, which means we love and forgive each other despite whatever the turmoil was.

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I Had Given Up On Love when Sabrina....

A little over a year ago, I met the love of my life when I wasn’t even searching. I had had my heart broken a couple times and I thought it was beyond repair. I was satisfied in life with remaining single for its entirety. One weekend, I was asked to come up to Youth Haven as a working interview for a summer camp counselor. Spoiler alert… I didn’t get the job because of what I am about to tell you.

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New Year, Same Me Please

This year, I experienced freedom for the first time. Freedom from addiction, freedom from shame, freedom from toxic relationships, freedom from self-loathing. I have grown a lot this past year, more than I realized I could grow. I have matured in many different ways. I set boundaries to protect myself and to respect myself. Last year, I was in a deep depression. It had been merely 4 months since my life was turned upside down. It had been only four months since I stopped drinking and self-harming. It had been only four months since I was in the mental hospital. It had been only four months since I was kicked out by the person who I admired the most. In this past year, I had a lot of growing up to do.

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Why I Left Seminary

This decision was anything but rash. I came to the decision to drop out of seminary after months and months of praying for direction. I loved what I was learning. I loved the assignments. I loved the school. I loved my classmates. Why did I feel such anxiety about remaining in seminary?

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Let Go Of What Should Happen

“At some point you just have to let go of what you thought should happen and live in what is happening.”

I tweeted this on July 28. If I were to have a take away phrase from this last year, it would be this. As you may know, last year, I felt as though I lost everything. I lost my mind. I lost my credibility. I lost a relationship with a man I looked up to. I had to start from square one.

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